Reflection, Month 1 of 12
The Accusations; Part 1
I have actively defended myself on these accusations, though the fact they are ignored in the unwelcome notice speaks of much.
I don't blame the Coronal and Archmage for acting with caution.. However, I am wounded to be cast aside despite what?s true and not, without my own reasons being heard. I was confronted about a number of things where I was left stunned, and I admit that during this I felt both confused, attacked and wounded.
I am being accused of spreading lies and hatred towards members of Myon in public with the intention of turning the opinon of other kindred, accusing the Bladekeeper of murder.. this is not true.. and I?m saddened to have to defend myself against such. All who know me, know that I resent liars and would not let myself become one. They know I speak of people in good-will and rarely - if ever - speak ill of those I even resent. I have expressed myself openly about many things, and would never say the things I am accused of. Valtarion is not a murderer, nor have I said he is. On multiple occasions have I expressed sadness over his way of life, because I do not understand it - and on multiple occasions have I asked people to help both him and myself to better understand each other.
What I have done is speak ill of Velvet, in public, in front of the council when I stood accused or "mingling with drow", an act where I smiled and greeted them, to not paint a target on my back as we were on neutral grounds.
Why I was there in the first place ties in to the accusations of me for associating with unwelcomes and undesirables of Myon.
Day 2, Month 7 (Flamerule (Summertide)), 175 AR
Raewynn Fael'then
The Accusations; Part 2
Yes, I spoke to Yukana once, while she was Unwelcomed. It was she who had contacted me, and I accepted due to personal reasons. As my friend had been assassinated, I wanted to ask her plainly if she had done it, since they had history. I told the Coronal this myself, and stayed away from further contact after that.
Yes, I'm friendly with the Red-dragon blooded Drakan, because he has not done anyone harm and is continuously working to aid people I hold dear. After his notice of Unwelcome from Myon, I stopped associating with him other than casual talks, until after my own Unwelcome status as he helped me on the Undead Battlefield.
Yes, I was friendly with Kaid, and I had gone to meet him in Shadovar in order to investigate him further, due to suspicion from the Watch of Guldorand that he was a Werewolf and Fiend-caller. However, it is not true that I went there solely on Watch orders, as I had asked former Bladekeeper Laenna if she wished me to look into it. I had also asked if she wanted an initial report on the suspicion, but she asked that I write one after I confirm his nature so as to not bother the Coronal.
''
No, that I was consistently refusing to share information about said people until properly interrogated is not true. On all of these occasions, and every time there's been something of importance, it's been delivered by report, direct word or speedy messenger service
Twice, I was late with written reports - Kaid and Roxxi.
Kaid, because he was not an immediate threat to the city, and I had not yet confirmed if he was a fiend summoner, hence why I was following Laennas suggestion of not writing a report until later. After being confronted about being seen with a drow in Shadovar, I explained precisely why I was there, and informed the Coronal that a report will be written in time.
Day 2, Month 7 (Flamerule (Summertide)), 175 AR
Raewynn Fael'then
The Accusations; Part 3
In the case of Roxxi, I had urgent things come up immediately after my encounter with her, and there was nothing I thought was urgent to report as to ignore my family for it.
I have willingly given names and information both written and spoken. Being late on reports is something we all can be.
When "Interrogated" about Roxxi, I was being defensive because the Voice was standing there, and she had previously accused me of something that was not true. It's only natural to want to know what has been said then.
That I am omitting information is not true. I have no knowledge about a bomb, that is the truth. The Archmage, after me being accused of spreading hatred towards the Bladekeeper, asked me specifically.. "What do you know about a bomb being brought into the city?".
I know nothing, and I was confused as to why they asked. I thought that a bomb had already been found somewhere, and they wanted information that could lead to the culprit, and so I began speculating.
I speculated on Yukana, the unwelcome, and an earlier report about her asking aid down Below to commit genocide in Myon. I speculated that perhaps it is her slave, asking for freedom, that has been sent to infiltrate Myon on her behalf to plant a bomb within our midst. I speculated that perhaps it's the group she had been talking about, that truly exists and they could have done it. I also speculated that perhaps it's the Artificer who could have such in a basement, due to her fascination with intricate items, no matter if they are dangerous.
All of the information within these speculations was information that had previously been brought to light by means of direct voice to the Coronal, Reports, or Speedy messenger.
Day 2, Month 7 (Flamerule (Summertide)), 175 AR
Raewynn Fael'then
The Accusations; Part 4
However, I now know why I was asked this.
A couple tridays previously, before I went on my journey, I had assisted my beloved in a writ underneath the Fortress City. Emerging from the Sewers, we both took a breath of fresh air and he said - "I hope no one saw us bring the bomb through the city"...
A jest, that I dismissed, and further warned about the risk of being taken seriously. A jest that *was* taken seriously, by an elf in proximity, that I won't name for his sake.
Caution was warranted, certainly, but I am wounded to have been painted the culprit even after defending myself.
I am being accused of storing a dangerous arcane circle in my home, and lying about keeping dangerous items in my home. This is not true, as I explained on that day.
When asked if I had dangerous items in my home, I acknowledged having a weapon in my possession that is considered evil, as it can do more damage to those of good heart. In truth, I had forgotten it was there, as it?s been in my possession for a long time.
I was asked if I knew of anything stolen from my home, which I did not, as I had not been home to take a proper look in a couple of tridays before the Aegis meeting. I however stated that I should know if something goes missing, as I do regularly look.
The Arcane Circle claimed to be found is a paper. A document, with a rough sketch of what the circle looked like, though missing the outer circle of an activation phrase. Below the sketch is written what I assumed was the materials used, though I was not fully certain. The original and actual arcane circle it?s referencing, I wrote a report about, because of its location being discovered in the Temple of Corellon.
Day 2, Month 7 (Flamerule (Summertide)), 175 AR
Raewynn Fael'then
The Accusations; Part 5
Originally, I had been asked to provide this paper for investigation, as to the origins of the circle, and it was later kept with me for safekeeping. I forgot to let the Coronal know in the absence of the Bladekeeper, and it is my fault entirely.
I did however not deny myself having this schematic, as I did not fully understand how a drawing on a piece of paper was "dangerous".
'''
It's claimed that I have divided loyalties, and I understand those thoughts. However, they are not true as my loyalty has always been to Myon first hand. I was part of both the Aegis and the Watch to bring the two cities closer together, and to act as a bridge in a much needed alliance. This was nothing I held secret, other than the means of not displaying both brooches at the same time. I found it easier on a day-to-day basis to visibly only have one brooch equipped, depending on where I was located.
By being this bridge, I was able to provide information to the Aegis that would have otherwise remained hidden in belief that it did not matter to the Elven Quarter. When I acted within the Elven Quarter, I was a Guardian of the Aegis. When I acted in the rest of the city, I was a Sergeant of the Watch. This allowed me to keep the people I hold dear safe, in my own way - and it worked.
When I was outside of the city, I acted on Loyalty towards Myth Myon. If asked who I was, a Guardian of Myth Myon was the one title I gave, unless there was a specific reason that required my role of Sergeant to be mentioned.
Even with the situation on Kaid, I went to the Bladekeeper to inform her of my intentions, and she accepted them. Had she asked me to stand down, I would have done so.
My letter of resignation from the Watch of Guldorand was written and awaiting to be signed, before the Aegis meeting, to prove to the new Bladekeeper and Coronal that I could be trusted. I will remain under the Watch until I am welcome again.
Day 2, Month 7 (Flamerule (Summertide)), 175 AR
Raewynn Fael'then
In Conclusion
What I am being Unwelcomed for, and asked to reflect over.. are mostly circumstantial and accusational. A lack of communication, and lack of trust from me already, caused unwarranted reactions from lies and others.
I understand the caution being taken, and I agree that my removal from Aegis was necessary due to the mistrust and threats of misdeeds. I also understand it in point of the revamp under a new Bladekeeper.
I am wounded that the majority of this lack of trust comes from hearsay, and actions that were sanctioned by the Bladekeeper at the time. I'd ask to speak with her, but I unfortunately cannot locate her.
I am also equally wounded about being thrown out of my house, as I am grateful for it being allowed under my name as my beloved and other kin with keys live there.
'''
I've been asked; Why do I care? Why do I wish to be accepted?
And I wish, is for the truth to be spoken. To be accepted into the place I called home, that I've defended and was willing to keep defending.
I am not secretive. I am not unreliable. I do not omitt information knowingly. I am not a liar.
I want this to be known.
Day 2, Month 7 (Flamerule (Summertide)), 175 AR
Raewynn Fael'then